I felt abandoned, torn apart, I longed to see His face.
But because of shame, held tight within, I rejected “Savage Grace.”
Although I tried to hold it in, my heart was so unwell.
I fought within myself and others; it became a living hell.
Hurt, and pain and trauma for years made my mind and heart a mess.
I turned and twisted at the turmoil within. To whom could I confess?
Who would listen and comfort me? Who would give up the time?
Who would patiently hear my heart? When I’d rather just say that “I’m fine.”
How hard it was to humble myself, and admit to troubles within.
How fierce the battle for total surrender, to conquer the aftermath of sin.
The sin of what many others had done had infected my mind and my life.
The memories of pain would not go away, resulting in sadness and strife.
But GOD assured me that I was NOT alone, and He’d never deceived me or lied.
I had to be humble, to trust and obey, and with Courage–let go of my pride.
I got on my knees and cried out to God, to heal me-my heart, and my mind.
I was tired and drained of living in pain. His GRACE, I needed to find.
And so He touched me, through the Body of Christ, His Healing flowed through many others.
I confessed my strongholds, my struggles within and was embraced by my Sisters and Brothers.
I thank God for this journey, I crawled my way through. His healing has now filled my soul.
I’m reminded that though I am broken, I’m complete. I am free. I am whole.
And so, as I try to press forward, and give thanks for the joy that He’s given.
I’m aware of the Presence of Jesus. He has given me glimpses of HEAVEN.
I continue the path He’s set for me, Through the trials, I still seek His face.
He’s Waymaker, Restorer, Protector. He’s My GOD who pours out “Savage Grace!”
Author’s Note
“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” (2 Corinthians 12:9 NIV)
Are you going through a painful time? Do you feel alone? Do you need help to just keep going? Do you feel helpless because of situations that are beyond your control? Do you need God’s grace and the grace of His people who are also broken but can walk alongside you?
Many times, experiencing grace is like being in a bloody fight, where you can’t see your way out, but something within you and outside of you helps you to keep hoping, enduring, fighting and pushing; relentlessly refusing to quit. Our thoughts and feelings can take us to some dark places, hello? We need grace to fight the good fight and WIN! Grace is Savage, yo! And it “is sufficient” to allow you and me to keep pressing forward, and pressing in Him. Amen?